I asked his advice …………….. I failed in March and got pregnant a month or two later (I have 35 weeks of pregnancy). All my family and friends will tell you really can not rest until the baby is here and I have terrible thoughts. I still think "what if the baby died on me and I do not deserve to be a mother. Yesterday I was talking to my mother and her husband that makes me feel very guilty, but really hysterical and start screaming and mourn. Now I'm panicked about the effects it causes my son. I have still some movement, but to say that I am paranoid it an accurate description. Only really need to know if there is no definitive proof that because of my anger that could have caused my baby to die. Yes Please, do not laugh is what's in my head and I have no intention of telling my midwife tomorrow my feeling. Thanks
I'm sure your baby is fine. With my third pregnancy I was under so much stress be surprised that I did not end my life … my husband was cheating on me with my beautiful sister, who was pregnant with him, because two weeks after me, he was an alcoholic and was emotionally and mentally abusive and manipulative, I had two other children aged 2 and 4, and left after suffering a nervous breakdown. I had not finished high school, had never had a job and suddenly, I was a single mother of two with another on the way and no idea how to do something for myself …. Believe me, my daughter has survived and is a happy, healthy 2 years old, your baby will be fine, I'm sure!
Part 3 – The Ghost in your Genes – BBC Horizon